ARKAWANA

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Location: MOUNTAIN HOME, ARKANSAS, United States

I HAVE BEEN HAPPILY MARRIED TO THE SAME MAN FOR 38 YEARS. MY FAMILY IS 6 GENERATION CALIFORNIANS, THAT TRANPLANTED TO ARKANSAS IN 1988. MY HUSBAND & I HAVE 6 CHILDREN 2 GIRLS AND 4 BOYS. MOST OF MY LIFE HAS BEEN RAISING KIDS AND GRAND-KIDS, WHICH I HAVE 7 WITH 2 ON THE WAY IN MAY 2010.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

CHRISTMAS AT THE NEALS

Christmas 2010
We have had a lot of sadness the end of 2010.  With the loss of Jana and Sam.  You think your heart will never mend, but in time the sadness will lighten up and we will find things in our life to smile about.  We have 3 new grand children a boy and two girl that are a real joy. 
We have cut way back on Christmas this year and I really think the kids didn't even notice.  They  have so much more then we did as kids.  But times are changing and I suppose that is life in general.  We had our Christmas the weekend before Christmas so the kids didn't have to travel on Christmas.  It just isn't the same.  I keep thinking we have missed the big day with all the excitement and laughter.  I have always loved Christmas the best of all holidays, but this year the joy is  gone.  Next year we will do it around Christmas or after Christmas so the excitement is still there.
I am waiting for the first snow I love the snow and watching the dogs play in it and the cat look so funny when she is out in it and can't find a dry way back in to the warm house.  The snow seems to purify the earth and give it a blank canvas for nature to work on.  I hope anyone that reads this has a nice Christmas and the New Year 2011 hold all there dreams.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

DECEMBER 2010

Where has the year gone? This year has ended in death and despair for me I have lost my first born and my best friend. It is hard to say what will happen next year if I can find hope in creating a relationship with the family that is left behind I hope that ii is possible. Life is so short and you never know how long you have to tell everyone how important they are to you. I look back over the last year and think I should of done something to break the ice that had formed between us. I really regret the time I wasted being stubborn and letting you cool off before I tried again. Only now do I realize that you could of used a friend to be there for you, and I wasn't. I know you are in a safe place now and you know how much you were loved. Till we meet again.